wait for the man who will do anything to be your everything....

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i am going to be all mushy and disgusting but i wanted to share how happy i am atm!

i have the best hubby in the world! he is the sweetest thing ever!

i was a little low for a bit there ( mainly his fault)and to cheer me up, he is taking me away to eagle view for the weekend, next week, and got us tickets to see varakia in september! i am so so so happy atm, do you know that feeling when you get up in the morning and remember something your gf/bf has done and it just makes you fall a little more in love with them for doing it? well thats how i feel atm...

btw, i am aware that mainly guys read this and none of you give a damn! but i promise if i am ever involved in a girly sleep over with pillow fights in our nighties i will post it in here for you!

why in the world would you be horrible and a dickhead to the people you live with? why?

he has managed to reduce me and mum to tears several times over the past 2 days,

how do you grow up enough to let your parents break up?

i know i am the only reason why they are still together....

life is shit

yase.

there is a show called "yasmins getting married".... guess what! i am getting married too!

its so exciting for me cause i never see my name anywhere, like i cant go into a shop and buy a little fake licence plate that says "yasemin" or a note pad with my name on it or anything like that...

so this is exciting for me!

why god why wont you let me have a holiday?

i am stuck in melb!!!

can you believe you believe i am stuck in melb, our flight to syd was canceled tonight!!!!

i just want to go home!!!!

earliest flight out of hell is at 4:30 tommorow arvo, if we can get on it! we have been on hold for 1 hour now!!!

i was meant to go to work tommorow, i was meant to go to the gong tommorow night!

kill me, or kill a virgin employee...either way, your doing the world a service!!!

hi,

how are we all? been a while hey? thelast week has felt like a eternity for me. This is what happened...

Thurs morn = happy excited yase and meric go off to surfers for a 5 day retreat, getting away from my parents ( who we live with) uni and work and everything, just us for 5 days, the best pressie that we got at our engagement party ( holiday voucher) was finally going to get put to good use

thurs 2 pm = call from merics sister saying his grannie is sick and has been taken to hospital.

thurs 7 pm = while at the local shopping mall..call from merics dad saying grannie has 2 days left, he has had a stroke and the dr cant operate cause her brain is full of blood.

thurs 7.45 = back at hotel and i am packing while meric books tickets

thurs 8:00 pm = back in same taxi that dropped us off at hotel speeding to airport

thurs 8:30 pm = on the last flight out of the gold coast and off to melb

Thurs 11 pm = at hospital, grannie has passed away, we say our good byes and they take her away, i have just seen my first dead body, very very freaked out and emotional. Looked like she was asleep. i didnt touch her, aparently she was still warm. thinking about it still upsets me

today fri morn = a week and a day later, i have spent my "holiday" in melb dealing with death in the family, fights over the will ( i know they have started already), people everywhere and meric knowing he will never see his yaya again and to top it all off i have had victor on my mind all week.

we fly home tonight, i could kill to just turn back the clocks and erase the last week from my memory.

so in short, love you all, take care, i couldnt bare what happened to victor to happen to one of you.

mwa

Yase.

I Write Sins Not Tragedies by Panic! At The Disco


Oh, well imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear, no I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding, what a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"Yes, but what a shame, what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

Oh dear, her infidelity just spilled all over the floor. Can somebody help her?

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of...

Well in fact I'll look at it this way,
I mean technically our marriage is saved!
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne!
Oh! Well in fact I'll look at it this way,
I mean technically our marriage is saved!
Well this calls for a toast, so pour the champagne,
pour the champagne!

I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again.

I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
I'd chime in "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.

Again.

how is everyone?

no one posts anymore!

so how is everyone? its been a while but its ok, i am not dead, just not posting

bit stressed out today.. its like i woke up from a deep sleep and realised... ummm...shit i have so much to do... here is what i am going crazy about

- stupid wedding! so i was all happy planning my dream wedding when merics dad turns around and says... you can have your dream wedding and i will give you 30,000 for it...OR>... i will give you 50,000 and you can have a small wedding and use the rest of the money for your house deposit... about 90% of me says take the money you bloody idiot what are you waiting for... and the other 10% says... your never going to be able to redo this... once in a life time...i just dont want to be sitting at someone elses wedding in 2 years time thinking... wow ... i wish i had all this... know what i mean? cause money is money, and well, you can always make money but you cant marry the man of your dreams for the first time more than once... what do you think?

- Uni, i hate uni, it end this year finally but its like its gone on forver and ever and ever and will never end! make it go away! i hate it! on a happy note, i have been looking online at jobs and i should be able to get one, i mean its all about your looks and not your resume right? hehehe

- work...and lack of money, i hate working for mum, you know this happens all the time, i start workingf for her and she pays me, a few weeks on the money is still coming... before i know it, i am working more days of the week and not getting paid at all... i get the shits and quit...and then 2 months later i am working again... I WANT TO BE PAID DAMN IT

- money... why does everything come back to money? we want to get a new car and we have no money...

- parents suck arse! i have lost about 7 kgs in the last week, had surgury and they are still not happy with me, its like ia m not doing enough to lose weight in their eyes! i hate my parents

- meric, you know i was really upset with him untill yesterday, i just got the shits that i am ALWAYS the one to plan every little thing we do, you know i dont even ask him if he wants to do stuff, or if he is free when i book something else cause i know he will be, i am just sick of it, i am like the biggest person ever for suprises and my whole life is planned! grrr... but then i was really depressed yesterday morning and he suprised me with flowers and a really sweet note and somehow everything seemed a little easier...and it doesnt help that every time i look down at my hand 2carrots of shiny loving sparkles at me! hehehe

in other news... i am off to QLD this time next month! yey!!! qld heat here i come!!!

i am meant to be meeting up with chicken tommorow night but she hasnt gotten back to me, so i might just make other plans...

hmmm.. i am hungry... will write more later

luv you all in a hungry kinda way

Yase

having a happy moment to myself so i thought i would share it with you...

i am sitting here on merics laptop, spent all day together, got him a hair cut did some domestic stuff, hung out for a while, then went shopping and made dinner together, he has just popped home to let his cat in before we cuddle and watch some tv and dream about buying a unit some time soonish....

spent yesterday with ellie.. moving her out of home and into the most spectacular unit...harbour views... wow...cant wait to spend some time with her there... actually it occured to me for the first time yesterday... i think we all grew up and forgot to notice... i was gushing and telling ellie she is all grown up now when she pointed out that we just had my engagement party and well.... i had grown up too....crazy hey...

mum and dad are on my laptop watching wog tv, very cute... trying to figure out the wed

well i am going to go and take some cookies out of the oven ( yes i baked but not really its those snap and bake ones)..

luv you all in a mellow way

Yase.

come across a racest dr?

i did today and i am FUMING!!!!


grrrrrrrrr

has anyone met their partners ex and not felt good enough?

felt so bad that they dont think they can go on?

i have, sat night was in melb and at a family thing ( for my new family, i dont want to call them my inlaws so i call them my new family) and merics ex was there...yeah like that wasnt enough... his other ex was there too... yeah like that wasnt enough... they are mates and took to the tactic of lets stare at her across the room and laugh!... fucken hell i feel this big * shows a tiny gap in her fingers*... so you say ignore it, its in the past let it go... yeah well i cant cause everytime i see my new family in melb they will be in my face... one is merics step mums sisters daughter and the other is a close family friend!!!

fuck life sucks!

so we try to sort things out...i decide i can get over this...but wait there is another blow to the system...i spilt coffee on my phone and it had to get sent off to be fixed, so meric borrows a phone from work for himself to use and gives me his phone... his phone has his phone numbers on it... me being nosey looks thru these numbers... and yes his ex's number is in there... home and mobile... WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU KEEP A NUMBER FOR A PERSON WHO YOU CLAIM NOT TO EVEN LIKE AS A FRIEND ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!

god give me strength!!!!

so i havent slept since sat night... i am really tired and really screwed up...i know i shouldnt care blah blah blha... but you know what? i do!!!

yase

love you all in a i hate everyone kind of way!

okies couple of things

fri night was magical! i had a really really good time, and i am soooo glad almost everything worked out the way i wanted it to....

why do people groom themselves on public transport? its disgusting!

MERIC AND I ARE GOING ON A HOLIDAY!!!! aahhhhhhh i have bitched and moaned that i need one for so long and i am finally getting it! yey!

i have started out writing thank you cards for the pressies from fri night

uni sucks arse! so sick of it !

we have set a month for the wedding... feb 2007...scary ha

i start a new diet tommorow... i have to lose like 30kgs by the time its time to order my wedding dress

ummmmm......

thats it for now, i am going to go and do some uni work

venue... booked
invites...sent
flowers... still to be decided
photographer... booked
camera man... seeing him tonight
rsvps... slowly coming in
finances... mum and dad
dress.... going in for 2nd fitting next week
family... still as horrible as ever!
merics suit...he claims its easy and not to worry
band.. booked
mc... booked ( well not really, its hazels dad)
rings.... brought but not engraved yet
person who is putting on our rings... not decided
menu on night... still not decided, i will have to post it on here and you guys tell me what you like out of it
cake.. booked and deposit paid
hair and make up.. not booked or thought about!

now.... i told everyone i didnt want a bloody engagement party! $25000 later i am just super stressed!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

yase